Will I ever get hired ? Does my short career experience have a negative impression to future employers ?
I have a degree in Pharmaceutical and Cosmetic Science. I took my degree in the UK in which it does not requires me to pursue an internship in order to graduate (like in most Malaysian university). Hence, I went to look for my first job with only an educational experience. I managed to secure my first job at a cosmetic manufacturing, however the environment was too toxic for my mental being.
So, I had to quit with only 6 months of experience in that manufacture company. I went through another 6 months of unemployment. Then, I managed to find a part-time paid volunteering job and worked for another 6 months. Because of the low pay and there was no full time opportunity, I also had to leave this job.
I've applied for more jobs and went for interviews. Whenever they ask me why I left the manufacture company, of course I don't want to make up excuses. So, I tried my best to explain why I left. And we all know that toxic work environment excuse is a dangerous one to tell the interviewer, because they will think " Well, maybe you're the one that's toxic ". At one point, I didn't want to use the toxic environment excuse, so I lied that I had to take care of my sick grandma and that's why I quit.
And now, I just don't know what do to anymore. Do the companies that I applied for doesn't want to hire me because they see that I leave so soon ? I'm not giving up. I'm still applying for jobs. I just feel like what will happen if I have not given up so easily and not let other people make me feel down when I work at that manufacturing company. I can admit my mistakes. I'm sure there were a lot of mistakes I made when I was working there. But it was my very first experience in the working world. How am I supposed to learn if I'm not making mistakes ? Were my employers didn't see that I was trying my best ?